A little shocked

So as you all probally know this past September me and my husband got into a car accident. Well ever since then I have had really bad back pain. I have always had a little back pain after strenuous days nothing too serious though. After this accident it has been really bad. I have done physical therapy and all that the doc has said... I had xrays done all clear so I had no reason why my back should be hurting so bad. I have been takin vicodin for awhile now and it helps some but still hurts. So Saturday my doc sent me for a MRI to see if there is anthing more serious going on. Well turns out I have Degenerative Joint Disease in my spine. I really dont know what to think about this actually I am a wee bit in shock. I dident expect this at all. She said for my age its pretty bad and I have to get blood work done in the morn to see if they can see any underlying cause. I asked if it coud be from the accident she said probally not but it has definently been worsened and thats why I am in so much pain since the accident. Its almost like kickibg someone with a broken leg. I am a little scared but its not too serious I hope. Its not something that goes away but hopefully something I can learn to manage better. So ya its sucks its scary but its not life threatning so I will be ok.

Up and at em!

I have been a terrible blogger I apologize :( Anyways things have been great! Kids are awsome me and ramon are doing great. Things cant get much better actually. School starts today I am so ready. I am going during the day this semseter while Dominic is in preschool. I am doing a math class at school and the rest online. Closer and closer to my goal every semester even though it seems sooo far away. My hardest struggle is finding balance , but I know I can do it I have been doing it for years now. Since the new years I have been eating better and working out. I have already lost a few lbs and feel soooooo much better. My energy is way higher and I am feelin good. My health is whats important and I am feelin the effects of eating better and its worth it! Hope all is well with everyone :)

Hmmmm

I was sitting her this morning sick BTW :( and thinking man I wish I could get this , get that, go shopping here... ya know blah blah blah. I am always telling myself and my kids especially to be so grateful for all that we have god has blessed us so much and we are all so very lucky. So why do I always find myself thinking I want more and more. We are in no way shape or form living with little by any means. I mean we own a beutiful brand new house, nice cars, nice furniture, big flatscreen, xbox, two of them! We have a wii, internet,laptop, iphones, I mean come on! We have so many things luxury items I cant count! I guess I see other people who seem to buy what they want and have just such nice things and I think man why cant we be like that. Our house is so cute nicely decroated, but I see other houses sometimes and I think wow how beautiful if I only had the money to decorate my place like this! Why cant we go on yearly lavish vacations? I just gotta say we are not thoes people with all the money to spend and not worry or budget and thats not what lfe is about anyway. I am not afraid though to be honest and say I strugggle with it sometimes. I will get mad because I vant go do GAP and buy all my kids clothes I can only get some there because they are pricey so I go to Old Navy ect. Just dumb I know it and I am trying to work through it. Christmas is a struggle for us to come up with all that extra money for everyones gifts I just wish we had it ready to go and could just buy whats needed. I would def say we are middle class some would say upper middle class. I do struggle with going back to work soon too. I am in school I will be an RN within 3 years money will be no issue by then. I do wonder though if in about 6 months I should get a part time job just so its not so hard on my husband. It would be at night when the hubby is home of course. Its just really crazy how expensive California living is my husabnd makes by himself about what a 2 working family would make and its a struggle! I dont know do others feel like this or am I just being a whiner, or do you find yourself always wanting more and more??

Fun stuff and not so fun stuff

Lets start with the fun stuff.My Dominic started preschool this morn! He did so well no tears he was all smiles! I was almost positive he would cry. He was super excited and even hugged his teacher! I was so happy he was happy made it alot easier on me too! I cant beleive my lil guy is already 3 and in school. Its so sad how fast your kids grow before you know it they are all getting so big and becoming little poeple with their own ideas and opinions. Well this weekend we did alot of shopping for the kids. They needed alot of winter clothes so we got alot done. There are just a few more things we gotta get but nothing big. My husband got an iphone this weekend for his bday and i fell in love with it! So what did he do he got me one of course! I love it and I was due for an upgrade on a phone anyway so really its just the media package that is extra every month. Its so neat though I am OBsessed! On the sadder side out cat died yesterday. This is very weird how it happened to... she was outside and we heard a loud thump like someone hit the house on the front porch. My husband looked at said its the cat I dont know what she did. So I thought that was strange I got up and looked she was laying on the porch and I dident see she was breathing. I walked out and she was not breathing. I looked like she was just laying there but she was gone. She was still warm and must have just died. I have no idea what happened she was just fine a bit ago she ate her big bowl of food and all. She had no marks on her like she was hit or anything and after she was laying thre for a few minutes
(i am standing there in shock looking at her) she starts to bleed out of her nose. I just am shocked as to what happened. I put her in a bucket and covered it and put her in the garbage can until I find this morning where I can take her to dispose of her body. Its just so sad... the kids do not know I will just tell them she ran away I guess. I cant bear to tell them she died:(

"Can I take my packpack"

Thats what my son asked because he is going to preschool!!!!! After 5 month of searching I finally found a preschool that is not only great but affordable! It is a private Catholic school about 8 minutes up the highway. It has private school all the way up to 8th grade so it is a long established school. We are not catholic, but it is a preschool based for all religions. They are so young so what they teach religion wise is nothing more than bible stories, prayer time, and general discussion of why god loves us and why we love him. This is fine with me because I prefer him to go to a religious school, and these are acceptable teachings for whatever religion that believes in god right!. Adriana went a religious preschool and did awsome and learned alot of general facts about the bible. The class room is huge and packed with tons of cool stuff for them to do and the pkayground is really neat too! He will be going Mon, Wed, and Fri. from 8-11:15. His teacher seems like such a warm person and has been teaching for 30 years. My good friend here in town is starting her lil one too so I am gunna drop them off and she will pick them up so its gunna work out perfect! I am so excited for him he is such a big boy now and now he is going to preschool CRAZY! I am just happy I found a place that fits us and we can afford. He starts Monday so I will be posting pics!

Costumes are so expensive!

I am trying to be better with money so when I put the kids costumes in out online cart it kinda sucks that the total is 90 bucks! Gosh it just seems like alot of money for costumes they will wear for a few hours. I have 3 kids so ya i know its not gunna be super cheap, but nearly a 100 bucks ouch!. They are all being superheros so nothing spectacular. I think I am gunna maybe try and shop around at a few discount stores. I just dont want to end up like last year crazy searching through a flood of people for dang costumes! We will see what I come up with isnt that a bit pricey?

What a crazy day in the valley..

Today I had a ton of running around to do and the valley was getting pounded by a storm! I am a California girl we hardly ever get really bad Storms which actually irratates me! I LOVE this weather actually I have lived here all my life so I guess its one of thoes things you want what you dont have. i really want freezing weather with storms, but some people would kill for California weather! Anyways i will say it was a little difficult to do all my shopping with Dominic in this weather. My suv was gettin pounded it was crazy! I had a doc apt. in town so i dident wanna go to town twice so I just did all my shopping today I went to a handful of places I was so pooped when I got home. Then Dominic did not wanna take a nap because he fell asleep in the car for a bit so I am soooooooo tired today. I was on a roll now I am tired...LOL. I cleaned my huse spotless yesterday now my fridge is stocked , and I even made a pot on homemade chicken noodle soup today! I feel like the rest of the week is gunna be a low key one! The girls got their progress reports today Adri is doing great, but Storm is struggling. So I am getting with her teacher to come up with a plan for me to do with her to get her ahead and where she needs to be.It seems she has struggled since she started school so if she isnt at where she needs to be by the end of the year I am going to consider home schooling her. I am my childs advocate so if the public school system isnt giving her the education she needs then I will step in and do my best to do so.Well I am gunna clean up a bit and watch 90210...LOL. Its mommy alone time soon!

Friday Friday!

I LOVE Fridays! They are the best because within hours the hubs will be home all weekend, kids have no school, and we can all hang together:) My mom is comin tonight to stay over till Sat. She comes about once a month to stay because she thinks we live so so far..LOL. We live about an hour from her! Its fun to have her over though the kids love it too so its always a good time. Last weekend our plans to get all the stuff we have lagged on around the house was altered we had my newborn neice all weekend because her parents were moving. I said I would keep her to help them out. So nothing but the swingset got done! This weekend we are gunna try and get some more stuff done. My husband might work a side job with his electrician buddy which sucks because he works on Sat., but good because he makes good money and really he is not gone too long. Oh and Friday is family movie night the kids always look forward to that and my husband brings home popcorn from his work for them (they have a machine at his job for all the customers) I laugh when I think all the electrician guys goin in there leaving with their little bags of popcorn..LOL! Have a great weekend all!

Spoiled...I try not to be

I seriously have a bad case of the spoiled brat! I have been basicaly spoiled my whole life by everyone around me. My mom, grandma,my dad (especially that man has never spanked me or done anytype of physical punishment my WHOLE life!) If I wanted something I got it from one parent or the other. My mom and dad have been split up since I was 2 so I basically got 2 of everything which made my spolied bratness even worse. I wasent a bad kid or bratty in a behavior way just a I want what I want way...LOL. Well now to this day I still struggle with it! My poor husband bears the burden now!I just have a hard time with the fact that we dont always have the money for things I want.My dad and husband will even laugh at me together because my dad will tell myhusband "She doesnt need that"....then my husband will say " I tell her hey you raised her"..LOL. My husband will always get me what I want because thats the kind of man he is. I just feel like a brat I wish I dident feel the need to get all the stuff I "think" I need to have. I have to have MAC makeup, get my nails done, go to the hair salon every 2 months or so 80 bucks a pop if Im lucky these are just mainatanence fees! I am obsessed with household decor all that stuff I just feel the need that I have to have things that I really dont. Money that should be saved I always spend. I will se something I want knowing I should skip it and save the money , but I cant fight the urge.I am the same way with my kids I over buy toys, movies, just I simply overbuy. You should see our garage they have 2-3 bikes each, a ton of sports stuff, water table, wagon, lots of stuff. I just wish I was a better money manager and would lose the whole spoiled thing. My husband always tells me you are so spoiled and I know he is not saying that in a fun haha way he is serious and I feel bad that I put that pressure on him. For instance we are looking for a smaller vehicle. I now drive a Envoy XL. Its really big and its just me and my lil man most of the days and we dont have big bulky car seats anymore so I suggested we get an economy car. So my spoiled ass ended up at the LEXUS dealer. Lets just put it this way if the dealership would have came up with a slightly better percentage rate my hubby would have bought me the lexus. He instead told me lets wait till December when they are wanting to get the 09's out so its a better deal. Come on I LOVE that car, but its really expensive and my husband would never chose to get a car at that price he just is doing it because he knows I want it. I should be much more frugal and get a car that fits out family better and is cheaper. I am workin on it here so stay tuned...LOL. On the plus side I took my nails off atleast until Nov. the start of the holidays:) I am not doing my hair as often and just trying to stay home so I am not tempted. I am really trying I dont wanna stress my hubby out he is the best guy ever and he does not need extra stress. I stay home with my kids, go to college, we have nice stuff, he just bought our family a brand new beutiful house I need to realize some people would kill for my life so the need to keep buying stuff when it is not even neccesary! I am not terrible or anything I mean we are not talking I but lavish things by any means Im talking 20 picture at Kohls, 25 jeans, starbucks,ect. but it all adds up. Especially with Xmas comin I need to cut back that alone scares me!

Nothing exciting to talk about here...good thing or bad thing hmm?

So this week has been pretty uneventful nothing exciting to tak about. I did however decorate this weekend for Halloween I will post pics later that was fun. We basically started from scratch with Halloween decor we dident really have anything so we got a few things this year to start:) Saturday my MIL wanted to take my Dominic for the week she doesent work and enjoys having them over I said well I will probally get him wednesday and my hubby is on his way to get him...LOL. I was sad because we would call him every eve to say hi and he would cry and say he wanted to come home so what is a mama to do I cant have my baby cryin:( I did however have a good time relaxing during the day with nobody here, but ya know what I noticed..I am a useless bum if I have no kids around.Seriously I just wanna lay in bed and do NOTHING when I should be doing stuff that is much easier to get done with no rugrats around. No..I dont I choose to be the definition of lazy and do nothing so neddless to say my kiddos give me drive and especially my lil man he keeps me on my toes! So heres to a chaotic and "normal " rest of the week!

Some of my FAVY quotes

Excellence is not a skill. It is an attitude. Ralph Marston

Anger dwells only in the bosom of fools.
Albert Einstein

Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.
Mother Teresa

Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.
Martin Luther King, Jr.

Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first.
Mark Twain

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.
Robert Frost


Don't marry the person you think you can live with; marry only the individual you think you can't live without.
James C. Dobson

Before I met my husband, I'd never fallen in love. I'd stepped in it a few times.
Rita Rudner


A baby is born with a need to be loved - and never outgrows it.
Frank Howard Clark


In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Abraham Lincoln

Weekend plans n such

This weekend me and the hubby will be getting all the little things we have put off since moving here done. We are gunna paint an accent wall in our room, we wanna paint 2 walls in Adri's room so thats the major stuff. Then Ramon has to put together the wooden swingset we got the kids thats takes forever to set up. We got shade blinds we need to install in our room and several odd and end stuff, I will be starting to decorate for Halloween also....EXCITED! Next weekend if its not too cold I think we are gunna do a camping trip just me the hubs and the kids. I am looking forward to it should be exciting..well thats all kinda boring...

Attention moms of pre-teens HELP!

So my daughter just turned 10 yrs old is driving me NUTZ lately! Dont get me wrong she is a really good kid rarely ever has gotten into any trouble at school or gets into any serious trouble here at home. Her main thing is CARELESSNESS or plain out LAZYNESS maybe?? Since she has started school up again she has has alot of homework every night well some nights more than others. I always look over it and let her know if anything is wrong help her out ect.Well just about ever darn time I check her homework there are just plain out careless mistakes. She will ususally have the correct awnser, but say she writes her math problems so messy and fast you can hardly make them out. Her spelling she will have incorrect words when the words are written on the page in the question right before her eyes. I warm her of this all the time yet she continues to make just carelss mistakes. It is not even a matter of can she or cant she do things I will ask her what is wrong with this word she will say its spelled wrong and proceed to give me the correct awnsers, She can write neatly when she puts the effort in. I am just so frustrated I tell her your awnsers that are correct quickly become incorrect because of just dumb mitsakes! Is this normal stuff for a kid this age or what I am confused here? Then this morn right before she gets outta the car she says here mom you need to sign this its a note that she pinched one of her friends in P.E.! I was s upset she just showed me the darn thing instead of showing me last night then why the heck would she do that for anyway? GRRRRRR I am so frustrated with her I have taken privledges all the normal stuff it just seems like nothing really gets her to "get" it ya know? Any suggestions anything anyone??

Happy Monday...too far from Friday

So this weekend was super fun Sat my hubs mowed the yard between the back and front its huge poor guy..LOL..after that boringness (is that a word??)we got ready and went to Lodi for my father in laws bday had late lunch with the fam including my bro n sis n law and baby Anissa it was a nice day with the fam I must say. Then we relaxed Sat night me and my love and watched t.v. woohooo..LOL. Sunday my sis n bro n law + baby came so me and her can make some bows for the kids! It was our first attempt and I must say they came out pretty good. We just made two so far well one that is actually usuable its pretty easy all in all so I am looking forward to more of that. Then I cooked dinner it was nice hanging with them I want the baby to be close with us and always asking to come to her Auntie and uncles house! I just love having kids around they always make you smile and laugh. Then lets move on to my new holiday decor obsesh....I am so excited to decorate for Halloween as I am all the up coming holidays even more so because we are in our new beautiful house... I have already been buying stuff and I am going tonight for some inside decor. I have been to Ride-Aid a few times and cannot resist! They have their stuff on sale so I just had to pick a few things up I am prob gunna decorate this weekend so I will be posting pics:) and the attached bows is out first attempt ..not bad huh?

I am Alive!

So for the hundreds of readers that are highly anticipating my next blog entry..( now you may LOL)...I am back! I actually am gunna make a point to blog every morn now just to get thoughts out and such! So what has been going on my oldest daughter turned 10 OMG! My baby boy turned 3 and I cant believe that when I say it:( My Adriana started Kindergarden and is soooooo happy to be there. She is so smart everything she should know by the end of this year she has known for atleast 6 months! Me and my husband got into a car wreck a few weeks ago some car slammed into us on the freeway thank god the kids were not with us. I hurt my arm pretty bad the side airbag launched right on my arm and actually burned my arm it still hurts badly:( Our car is totalled it was my husbands work car and our smaller communter car which was nice actually a 2000 VW Passat totally loaded so Im sad to see it go:) Anyway the ins company gave us a rental until we have the check for a new car so we are alive so Im not complaining. All is well with us kids are great, me and my Ramon are great, Ramons work is going great we love our beautiful home thats is OURS!!!My bro in law and his gf had their baby my neice so thats very exciting she about 2 1/2 weeks old so tiny and cute! So far this year has been pretty good god has really blessed our family I have so many things to be thankful for its ridculous! Dont get me wrong days are challenging and sometimes I feel like I am gunna lose it, but my problems are so minor compared to some so I get through it. Life is good, God is good, until the next time.....MUAH!

Its been forever.....and a few recent pics

It has been long time since I have blogged! Well I cant say I have been crazy busy or anything because I havent just been facebooking too much..LOL. So whats new in our neck of the woods is we are way further along with getting settled into our new house than before! There is just the garage left to organize and decoration type stuff. The yard is currently being landscaped which will be a huge accomplishment there will be no more desert when I look out the window and my kids wont look like dirt balls everytime they come in! We have such a large backyard and it just brings so much dirt inside so I am excited to say the least! Dominic is POTTY TRAINED!!!!!!!! Yessss....I have changed diapers for about 4 1/2 years straight...I had Adriana then I had Dominic when she was 22 months old which left me with two kids in diapers then once Adri was trained I still had Dominics little stinky booty so I am diapered out! Everything is going really good for us my husbands job is going great and everything is just going really good. I took summer off of school so I can get a break for a few months to concetrate on the kids I start up Aug. 31st again and I will be taking a good load on I am moving up in my sciences so I can hurry up and apply for the RN program I am halfway there so its a process!Our 4th of July was fun we had a bbq here at home and did fireworks and the whole deal it was a good time.

Finally....

We MOVED!!!!! YEssssss it had been a long road 2 1/2 months long! My god this has been more stressful than ever thought, but it is done we have our new place;) It is great I coulden't be happier. The neighborhood seems really quiet and out little town is so darn cute. The moving part has been crazy our place is somewhat put together, but we still have ALOT to do. I am hopeing with the 3 day weekend ahead we will get alot done. We still have to purchase a dining set and a few living room furniture items along with new docaration type stuff. Thats the part I am excited for I just want it to be all perfect and ready, but I know it will porbally be a few months before its all complete. I have sure learned patience from this all I am just so happy! The kids LOVE it here they have their own rooms and more space to run free so they are content. Its me who is a feak about every thing they do hands on the walls and slamming doors hehehe...I am really trying to keep it clean clean clean!Tuesday me and the girls are leaving with my dad and stepmom for disneyland until Friday so we will get a bit of a break. My husband is staying behind with Dominic so they will be having man time! BTW the red wall we did in the living room took 4 coats of paint over 4 days my goodness was that a project!

Amazement and Frustration

So my Adriana gets alot of bloody noses. Probally a few a month I would say, and it also seems to be for no apparent reason. When she gets one she is so used to it now she just says "mama my nose bleed i get tissue" lol. I asked the doc about it he said some kids get them alot more than others and there is no reason for concern. My husbands dad gets them almost daily. So last night about 1:30 a.m. I hear her little voice at our bedroom door saying "daddy, daddy" she usually calls him since I sleep like a rock! I heard her and asked what was wrong she said "mama my nose bloody so I got a tissue". I was half asleep and said ok mamas coming. So i took her to he bathroom she had a bad ol' bloody nose. It was on her shirt,her pants, her arms, and all in her mouth! My gosh and my lil girl got up all by herself in the pitch dark and got tissue to clean her bloody nose! She did a pretty good job too! You would think she would be scrared or something but no she got up by herself and fixed her nose she said. I cleaned her all the way up and rinsed her mouth since it usually drains in he mouth also when she has bllody noses. Then she went right back to sleep. I was so proud of her I really hit me my baby girl is getting so big. Then my son...oh my lil man! He has been waking up at around 5:40 in the morn for aboout a week now. I am NOT a morning person at all so this really sucks. He has always been a early riser he would alternate between 7:30 then he went to 7:00 ish which was totally fine with me. Then he started moving into the six o'clock hour which was pushing it for me. Now its in the fives!!! Cant take it!! My husband told me today dont worry I will wake up with him and go for walk...I just think we need to teach him he cant wake up that dang early. He wakes up the girls he is so loud!! 6:30 is early, but ok I will deal with it but in the five o'clock hour come on!! I get it kids wake up early he is my last one and I have never had this issue with my girls. They wake up early "kid" time 7 ish so its not like I expect them to wake at 8:30 or anything. So... for the few people who even read my blog what do you think??BTW he goes to bed at 8 and he does take a nap at 2 and usually sleeps till 4:40 or 5. So he does take long naps so we decided to change bedtime to 8:30 (for all he kids since they are getting a bit older). As for his naps I am going to wake him at 4 so he only sleep 2 hours not 3 Im thinking maybe he is napping so long since he wakes so early so thats where he catches his sleep.

Happy Mothers Day !!!

Happy mothers day to all you mammas out there!! Its a hard job we do so we deserve a day of r&r....I woke up to mi kids homemade card which were adorable and my husband store card that sang :how sweet it is to be loved by you" from the kids also!! He had strawberry waffles for me he got at our local small town resturant which was grub!!!I really want the wii fit so he got me and extra game for it....its a gold gym one too stoked! later this evening we are going to The Waterloo resturant which is my fav for some ribs and yummy cocktails!!! Cant wait I am blessed!! My mother in law is in Mexico so thats sucks, I did mothers day with my mama last weekend since we assumed we were moving this weekend, and I got drinks n a pedi with my step mom yesterday so today its just me.

Mothers Day weekend!!!!

I am soooo excited for this weekend. I feel like everyday I am blessed just to have the privledge of being my kiddies mama..so a day thats spoiles me for that is just icing on my cake!! Being a mom is by far the best things I could have ever asked for. Times get hard and my patience gets tested daily, but they make me complete and the crazyness is what little ones are about! Nothing rewarding comes for free or without sacrafice and hardwork , parenting is not any different. To me a mother is a women who loves unconditionally. A women who puts their children before themselves at all costs, and a women who is completely selfless. When I had my first child my life was no longer just mine every decision I make effects my children and thats how I believe it should be. Of course I love having "mommy" time believe me my life is alot of fun, but I live everyday for them my free time comes after any of theor needs or wants. I will say though my life is dedicated to my kids and I dont mind saying I dont have many girlfriends I go out with or anything of that sort because I chose to direct my life towards being with my kids and being the best mom and wife I can be.Having a good social life and hanging with my firends is pretty low on my priority list. The day will come when my kids are grown or simply just dont want to hang out with their uncool mom so I will be here every second while they do.Being a mother is a privledge not a right and I truely am thankful for all my gifts god gave me.